滇藏之行过去已经两个多月了，每每在朋友处看着从西藏带回来的转经轮，明信片儿，阿土伯买的游记都不自觉的失落。离开的愈久就愈发开始怀念拉萨，心里不断的后悔当初没有多留几天时间逛遍拉萨每个角落，走过一条街道，拜过每一间寺庙，如今相隔甚远，心中回到拉萨的渴望却愈发的强烈。

藏地是一片有灵气的疆域，是能激发起人的梦想的神圣之地，憧憬着下一次的纳木错，海拔4700，我会支个帐篷，这样一整夜就能躺着看到银河转动；等待着着下一次“混在藏民里冒充藏族学生”，在大昭寺里一尊一尊佛祖那么拜将过去；期盼着下一次穿行于拉萨的旧巷古街之间，流连于大小藏式书吧之中；希翼着能在拉萨周边一个民间孤儿院教几个月书，尽管我的体能有限，海拔3650无法长期健康生存.

那天面面说我用两个月的时间旅行，之后再用两个月的时间去怀念我的旅行。而藏地如一种烙印，去过那里的人，终究会再回去，它会在梦中（包括白日梦里），不断的召唤着你。尽管现在的我却不确定还有多久，自己才能再次收拾好心情，怀着旅人之心上路，继续前行。

一个人的旅程，是孤独的苦行，而人生又何尝不是一段苦旅呢？

having a week from hell : i could not sleep, i could not eat, i could not control my temper, I'm living in despair

then after 5 and half days, i freaked out. when i lost myself somewhere, i ignore other ppl's feelings, starting  talking like shit , did things i don't mean to and eventually hurt ppl who luv me.now i feel guilty , and finally i wake up .i could have it all, i was so close to the perfect life, but  i think i just screwed myself over, again...

did i follow my heart? did i go with the flow? or did i even know where I'm going? I guess it just wasn't meant to be

anyways, from this day on, I'll stop being hyper-sensitive,stop mourning without object, stop my negative emotions.here comes my favorite quote "If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be."

我，似乎每时每刻都是矛盾着的
不知道其他双子座的小孩儿们是不是一样的哈？
每次读起六世达赖仓央嘉措的《那一世》都会不自觉的陷入作者无限的悲哀和伤感之中
也都会无法控制自己一遍又一遍的重复着那些诗句

有时候我想自己是太感性了，总会因为别人的故事而伤断自己的心肠
同时，也会因为别人的幸福而由衷的感觉到幸福，从心底里就那么欢欣雀跃起来
回国所经历过得3次喜宴，其中2次伴娘
每当在台上台下看着新郎新娘对对方说我愿意的时候，真是控制不住自己发自内心的微笑

我想，明天我亲爱凑的婚礼，会是非常的圆满呢，一定是这样的喏
台上的一对人儿这一生就是为彼此制造的，都是最完美也是最最圆满的撒


双子座的另一个小孩儿，又在同时劝着另一个撒：
情爱可以度人、度世，过之，则可致人万劫不复.只有参悟了寂灭之理，才能在修行道路是再进一步.
那个小孩儿，你明白了吗？
看来，你早就懂了，放下了，就得到了.

Natasha Beddingfield 的 Soulmate：最近听得最多的一首歌了，得有个百八十遍吧

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone